sketch 23rd January 2008

I really should sketch random stuff.

Plans for Pepper artbook project, undecided.

Pencil Junk

Nothing much thought I post up progress. I really should draw something.



Have a tad improvement but got a long way to go.

Bugger off Mushy day...

because it's my 爸爸 birthday!!!

生日快樂 爸爸！

He would been 70 this year. :( But I would still celebrate it even if his not here.

*sigh* I really should move my arse!

Feeling under the weather

Everything that has been going is going slowly to nowhere. I decided to sign up to University. But the main problem things are happening like this place wouldn't be here. I'm getting abit dishearting and hearing news that 爸爸 won't be staying in UK, so that means that when ever I feel that I want to see him and talk to him. I have to go to HK every three years and I don't think that I would have the money to see him or even talk to him. Very heart breaking for me... :(

But the more I think of it. I have to let this be... which I can't because I'm very much of a person who don't want to let go. Maybe I'm too use to everything unchanged and it's scary. I know that I should really think about myself, maybe I'm not fit as a human being.

I feel like shit. (~___~; )

The odd feeling

It's the first Christmas that neither my dad and my mum are here for Christmas. It's a little unsettling that it's just the siblings eating at Christmas. Everything that I have been thinking has made no progress.

I feel like a failed piece of meat going rotten with chance of changing. I have been stick like this all my life and it's hard to get out. Life is sooo shit for me that I took up my smoking, it's wrong I know but everything is failing me now and my determination is flat with poison. I really want to change but everything has hit me hard in the head that I can't do anything to fight back.

Maybe I have the life that isn't worth living... *sigh* I hate my life.