Self

Everyday I only see myself in dark place that no one would want to hear nor see. I sit and laid idle, lost in time. Everyones cheerful smiles I have to vision seems fade and blurred. The days heads on when I stop closed into myself. Burden and hatred fills within me that only smokes appears my breath. I'm locked in time that I struggle to see myself, me who could change from a blink of an eye. My words spoken but in a different voice and stings that pull my heart. I lie idle without a voice to command my own, bearing every thought I can't do on my own. Without a release I suffer on silence and the hurt that I done to myself bears the marks of hating myself. I know that I can change, but every change that I want stops me with a sound. I do bruise and bleed but no one can see the damage in the dark place that I lead.